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I'm feeling kinda empty...
That ain't nothing new to be honest

But this time I was looking for the meanings of this
What it feels to be empty?
What empty truly means?
Am I really empty?

The dictionary gives us a lot of meanings
But how to explain what you don't even feels?

Why do I feel that way?
I look at the mirror and I see nothing
I try to look inside of me and I don't see nothing
I breath in and I feel nothing

Am I really living?
Is it worth to live without feeling?

There's so much space you can fill when you are feeling empty
But at the same time there's no room for nothing inside you because you are empty

It feels weird but it definitely doesn't feel bad
Everything that you do goes on some kind of autopilot
You don't feel nothing
There's no fear or anxiety when you're empty
You can always do everything without thinking too much

Therefore there's no tears in emptiness
Sometimes you believe that it's better to stay like that

It will be painful to feel again
And you don't want that

It's kinda hard to be empty
There's no motivation behind your actions
You can't find reasons to do what you want
The emptiness always comes to question if you really want that
Do you really need to sleep?
Do you really want to eat?

And our conclusions are always the same
I don't need nothing
Why should I care?

I'm still eating and sometimes I go out
Most of the times with a smile on my face
But deep down I still don't feel a thing
Only I know the emptiness that exists inside of me
Or maybe I'm the one who exists on him

Feb 17, 2020


Soju, Notes Before...

The why's and how's of life
mixed with repetitive emotions
day after day
makes me wonder

why I'm still going?

I'm not enjoying the heartbeat
I can't find meaning behind the existence
And that's normal
We ain't supposed to understand such phenomenon
There's so much to do here
And time is so precious for us

I want to be able to enjoy this ride

But I'm just tired
That's enough time for me
The credit goes entirely to me and life herself

Feb 16, 2020








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